Darling please, just make it go away;

Outside the sky is clear yet no stars shine and the moon seems so far away tonight.. Not a sound stirs the still night, I am well beyond sleep. Time seems to have escaped my reality.

I told myself I wasn't going to write when I was feeling like this, yet it wouldn't be a very honest journal, would it? Like a beautiful rose love has its thorns. Life has its road blocks. Sometimes it all seems to much, I just wish it would all go away, the pain, the memories. One must keep going though.

I often stay up late, thinking and ironically dreaming. I do know in my heart all will be well and I will soon be in your arms. These are hard times for us both, but my darling, don't give up. I believe in you. You can push me away.. i'll still be here waiting. 

There are times in ones life when many things seem to happen at once, a cluster of negative emotions, a cluster of negative happenings. Yet whilst these times are hard remember, everything that once made life beautiful to you; the soft pink of a rose, the way the sun shines through the trees... It is all still there.

Until next time my darlings...